The Imprisoned Mind

I was 35 years old when I was injured. At that time I had been working for a major aircraft company for almost 18 years. I never imagined that I would become disabled. After 3 lower back surgeries and 2 neck surgeries I was totally dependant on pain medications and other pills. I didn't know east from west. After a decade and a half later, I was taking 30 pain pills and 12 sleeping pills every day, and still the pain was there and hardly any sleep. I was so depressed and unable to do any physical labor, and to messed up to do any mental work. I had gone through many withdrawals. It has been shear torcher. Over the years I have been through 6 rehabs, but to no avail. They just didn't have anything to help people trying to get off of prescription pain pills. More times than not I would end up in an ambulance on my way to the emergency room. My blood pressure would get so high I often fainted. It's almost impossible when you're in that much pain, coupled with the fact that they had nothing for the cravings of the drugs themselves. Until now, this new drug, Suboxone became available, in which I was able to now stop taking the pain medications at home, with the use of this new medicine. Although I am in severe pain, in my opinion it is worth the trade off to be of sound mind. This journal will walk you through my journey of the imprisoned mind.